I wake up small. Barely four feet.
Female, thin. A child. I wonder what it is like to wake up the same
as when one lies down to sleep. That body was tall, slightly cramped
even in this large crate. It is but an idle thought, not made for
following, though.
I put my nose to the hole in the crate.
No new smells, good. I am still alone here. With care, I swing out
the side of my crate and roll into this cold place. Wood instead of
concrete. An old, abandoned warehouse building. Safest, for now.
Perhaps soon, something without dust.
The rats here are healthy, unlike the
ones in Manila. Many things are different here than they were there,
or in the other places I have been. But they are not like how those
other places think it is here. I expected to be shot at within
moments of arriving. Instead, I have seen no guns, and practically
have to seek out violence anywhere except on the media.
I only have one left, though, in my
little larder. One fuzzy little rat to eat. Two slices of the
cheesecake left, but my body says protein instead of sugars right
now. I start chewing, while thinking about my day.
I have alcohol enough to last for a few
days. The good stuff, not what they sell to each other for drinking.
Isopropanol seems like a very deustche word. Longer than it needs
to be. Best flavor, best food value for the volume. Takes me an
entire bottle of the browner ones to match a single pint of the
alcohol from the pharmacy.
Walking to the window, I let clothing
flow from my skin. Grey, like the outside of the building. My skin
follows suit as I step through the swinging window and plant my feet
on the outside of the wall. Squatting there, with twenty meters of
air below me, I watch you.
It is a time for watching and
listening, now. Not for the research I would like to do. Searches
here will be studied, reported, logged and tracked. I will have to
be careful to do them in many different places. Libraries here will
be good for that. Universities, perhaps. They were good in Munchen
and Lisbon. But not so much in other places.
The language here is strange. It is as
if it cannot decide what it wishes to be, and so it is something of
everything. Even its own speakers do not understand how it works or
why.
I think I like that.
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